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So I got offered those two school counsilor jobs (I don't think it's quite the right job title, that matches my job description 100%,  but it's close enough) and I picked the permanent position, even though the one year job would have been in my favourite city, so it smarts not to take it.

I've used most of my time today organizing the move and all kinds of small things I need to get into order before things are settled, but now it should be all ready to go. The moving company is coming on the 2nd of July and I have a couple of options for apartments lined up.  I really hope I end up liking this job, because I REALLY want to stop moving constantly (if I could live in one place for 2 years... idk sounds so unrealistic even to write it down. Maybe I should aim for a year to start. :D)

The moving company is really expencive (even though I picked the cheapest option, there were two companies that had outrageous prices!) but at least this way I don't have to carry all my stuff myself or drive the moving van, or take care of returning it after I've moved. I think that piece of mind and saving all that time and effort will be worth it.

I get to have July off and start the new job on the 1st of August, which is also nice, because I already had 2 weeks off in my current job this May, so I have 6 weeks vacation this summer!!! :O

The plan I had about reading 3 books each month this summer is not going great... I've yet to read anything. >:(

I have been playing a lot of D&D though, which continues to be fun! I just wish I was more quick witted so I could roleplay better, but I hope that's something I'll get better at with practice.

Oh and Good Omens was great! I was worried about the actors when they were announced and they looked so stupid in the still images that were shown before the show aired (and I still don't know why they went with those hair colors...) but when in action, the actors were adorable and super in love and it was all good. <3

I kind of disappeared for March, from the way I was posting this month :'D There's no real reason beyond that I've been binge watching Critical Role and finally caught up yesterday and now there's no more show to watch (and of course they have next week off so there really is no show to watch) I've been thinking about going back to watch the first campaign, but haven't gotten the urge yet. It's so old you guys (jester voice)

Also the D&D game I had to apply for has had two sessions so far. I've had tons of fun!!! I'm playing an elf paladin who worships the goddess of love (he's basically a hippy dibby male model, who just wants to keep everyone safe) haha~ I also ship two of the other characters, a halfling sorcerer and a kobold rogue, their banter is just too good. (I've not shared this with the players, because that might make it awkward for them, which is the last thing I want)

Work has been fine. I think I'll stay here for another year, if nothing super good appears. This job is really easy, I'm not going to get a better job at the same thing I do anywhere else. I am going to keep a lookout for hospital jobs though, because that would be good for my plans to eventually become a therapist.

I'm also thinking about applying to study psychology. It's a really competitive and popular subject to study so I doubt I would get in, but it's not like it hurts to try. If I were to get in I think there's a good chance I could get part time work in my current occupation, so I wouldn't be as broke as a student. IDK, I just have this feeling like I'm not in the quite right line of work and it's nagging on me pretty often.

Because I spent basically all of my free time for the past two weeks watching Critical role, I'm behind on Star Trek and the Magicians. Maybe I will watch those this weekend (I have tomorrow off work, and I'm going to go visit my mom back home. 3 days off work, so goooood!)

I was reading yuletide prompts, as you do, when I stumbled upon someone who had made Outlander prompts and then I was transported to being like 14 maybe when I went through a lot of the series, until I was finally like, dude this is too much drama for two people to have and when it got confusing and there was even more time travel? I think I read until they went to America(?) and then finally abandoned it because I got tired waiting for the next book and found better things to read... But anyway, it gave me nostalgia for the series and also reminded me of the weird (and super problematic) m/m pairings and potential the books had. Now I'm kind of tempted to watch the show just for those reasons??? Also I see Lord John has appeared in the show too. *aaah*


What else happened this week: I saw the new Star Trek trailer and I'm still very confused about why Spock has a beard, but hopefully this will somehow inspire people to write new Spock/Kirk fic. I wonder what the age difference is in this version. I mean in tos Spock is older than Jim, but in the new movies they seem to be pretty much the same age? or at least it's written that way in fic more often than not. idk, I just want new Kirk/Spock stuff to read.

I also really want to go see the new Spider Man cartoon, but I'm not sure the schedule will work out. It came out at a really weird time of the year, or is that just me? I guess Star Wars always comes out around Christmas too...


real life stuff:

Anyway, tomorrow is the last day before Christmas holiday!!! 5 freaking days off work in a row. Bliss! But then it's straight to moving next Thursday, which sucks.

At least I got my permanent contract at work today... I'm still kind of salty though as my boss didn't even congratulate me when I told her I had officially graduated and had my diploma and all the shit she had been insisting I get before they will give me the permanent contract. Thanks a lot, it's not like that would have been basic manners, I guess that's too much to expect at this point.

My cat has been staying with my mom for the past month and I miss her! It will be so nice to see her again on Saturday

Then more generally about work, I don't know how worried I should be about this, but I've noticed I'm getting super calloused about human suffering, especially with kids. I mean I think you need to have that sort of attitude to some degree or you just get burned out, but like I really wonder what sort of story I would have to hear now to make me shocked? At this point I'm like, yep, humans are terrible and parents fuck up their kids in myriad ways and pretty often they really have no idea how harmful their behavior even is.

What I am still surprised with is how easily kids/teenagers seem to give up, like they can be like 9 and saying their life is ruined, or they can never become anything, or they are young teens like 13-15 and have just decided that yep, because my parent(s) were pieces of shit that must mean I have to follow in their footsteps. I guess that's at least comforting, I think it's time to change professions when I am willing to just accept that too and not feel angry and frustrated.

I really hope that if fandom, or at least parts of fandom, come back to DW for a while we could get back fests, where there would be a theme or prompts for fanfic and then people would have time to write and then everyone would post their fic. I really don't like the exchange versions that have completely replaced fests, as I feel it's too much pressure to write a fic for a specific person according to their wishes. It also makes it so much easier to have multi fandom participation if the parameters are more trope or prompt specific instead of trying to match participants by their pairings/fandoms *sigh*

Then a real life update. I'm sick and at home, I went to see a nurse yesterday after leaving work in the middle of the day and she wrote me a sick leave note for wednesday-friday. So on the one hand, yay free time from work, but at the same time, urgh having the flu is not fun. I'm also really sick and tired of my boss, who is a terrible personal manager and seems to have no skill in dealing with her employees in a way that's not demeaning/mean/rude or just inconsiderate. Also I still don't have my new contract for January and I have a feeling she's not even that keen on giving me a new contract. So that sucks and I'm thinking that if they give me the new contract I'll stay until autumn (so I can use my holiday days and have an actual vacation for once) and then quit, unless something changes for the better. This really sucks, because I've actually pretty much liked the work itself and it's really disheartening how much effect a bad boss and a bad relationship with your boss can effect me personally.

I binged the whole Castlevania netflix show yesterday/this morning and it was very good (hello ot3!), but very very gory and violent.

I've also started listening to "everybody hates Rand" podcast about the Wheel of Time books and because they are super critical about Rand and to some extent of the other characters it's made me think about them and why I like or dislike some characters. I don't think they'll convince me not to like Rand (he's my favourite) but they make good points about how his views of women and how he treats women are really messed up and sexist. I think some of it is understandable and due to circumstance, but some of it is just bad writing from Jordan/Sanderson.

I've been thinking that I want to do one of those 'let's read' series about a book or a series for a while, but I'm torn about if I should pick something I've never read or do a reread. (if I did a reread I could pick something like the Goblin emperor, or one of the Dragon Age books, but I think it would be a good idea to start with a standalone, so I could maybe actually finish it) I think picking something is the hardest part... but it might also turn out to be a LOT of work and very time consuming, so I'm not sure I have the time. I think it might also be fun to do it like Mark reads does, and do a youtube video too, except that English is not my native language and I have an accent, not to mention that I doubt anyone would watch the videos anyway. :D haha~ I used to make voice posts on LJ sometimes, so I guess I could just do a recording instead. Does someone have ideas? Or recs to good read-along blogs they follow? I used to follow a lot of them on tor.com when they did wheel of time and Malazan, but they idiotically stopped those like half way through.