oanja: (Default)
Hi! I've noticed people making these now that people might be coming back to journal fandom (for the time being) and I thought it would be a good idea to make one too.

I'm a Finnish woman, early 30's, I got my Master's degree in December 2018. I have a full time job I'm not particularly excited about and always wondering if I'm in the right line of work.

I have a cat (Maine Coon) called Taika and a Dog (Lagotto Romagnolo) called Leia cut for photo )

I'm single and maybe demisexual or somewhere on the Ace spectrum, I'm bisexual (and yes that includes more than two genders)

My life situation is a bit weird in that I keep moving all the freaking time! I don't think I've lived anywhere for more than a year since 2016 and since then I've moved four times and I'm about to move again this month. I keep changing jobs and all of them have been in different cities, which makes moving a real pain. We'll see how long I'll stay in this next apartment...

I read mainly fantasy with some scifi and historical mixed in. I like the idea of reading published romance, but I find I'm very picky these days so I haven't found many romance books I've genuinely enjoyed or finished. (this is pretty funny because when I was like 11-15 I used to read a shit ton of Harlequin romances and the like).

I've been in fandom since I was 19, so 13 years now, I've written some fic, but mostly I have been a lurker. I used to roleplay quite a bit in my early 20's when I had time for such things *sigh*

When fandom moved to tumblr I kind of became an even more passive fandom participant, as I found tumblr bizarre for having conversations or for making fandom friends, I did write quite a bit of Hockey rps at the time, but I didn't really get to know any other fans, except a few people on twitter, whom I still follow there.

My forever fandoms are Stargate Atlantis and Star Trek (tos and the new movies). I'm really glad I got to see a few of the massive fandoms that used to exist before it all got super fractured.

cut for gaming )

Hmm what else? I started an urban fantasy novel in last year's nano and won, with maybe about 25% of the story still unwritten. I should get back to writing that, because I think it would be very cool to actually write and finish an actual book manuscript, even if it never goes anywhere. I have other ideas for original (fantasy) fiction, but I haven't really managed to write anything this year (except my thesis which was 42k so I'm pretty proud of that!)

I knit (socks mostly) and sow (cosplay stuff) sometimes, but I'm not very good at it and I keep starting and getting distracted by a new project and abandoning the old one, which is bad for ever finishing anything.

This got long and brambly, which is like peak me, or whatever the kids say these days... :P Anyway, hi and welcome! feel free to subscibe to my my journal, I hardly ever post anything locked and when I do it's just personal whining. I will most likely follow back if it looks like we have similar interests.

oanja: (random movie firefly)
Went to see a friend for Easter and that was fun, even though the drive was too long (closer to 4 hours). We didn't really do much, watched some youtube videos, the Beyonce Coachella concert on Netflix and played some board games. We also went to grill some sausages outside, which is the only place where you should ever eat sausages tbh.

It's that time of year when I'm looking for a new job. My current job is okay, but there's to much driving and I don't want to do that for much longer and definitely not for another winter. Also my boss is a jerk, so that is a factor also.

There's a job opening in my home town and I think that might be nice for a while. I think it would be nice to live near my mom, also built in pet sitter for when I want to travel, with much less hassle than it's been for these past few years. I think I'll send an email to the job and ask a few details.

There's also another job I was eyeing, mostly because it has school counselor stuff built in, which I think I might like, but it's really hard to get your foot in the door of without any experience.

Oh and D&D tonight! whoo, maybe we'll get to level 3 after this session. (I want those oath powers damnit!)

Then some TV stuff:

magicians and disco )
oanja: (bear with glasses)
Ow, my shoulders are so tense and messed up. It really doesn't help that I spend most of my work day sitting at a computer and then I come home and sit at my computer some more.

Anyway, I'm meeting with my local rpg group tomorrow and we'll be rolling D&D characters for them and next time we'll start Waterdeep Dragon Heist with me as the GM... :D I hope it's not going to be a disaster. I've never GM'ed a d&d game and it is more complicated as a system than the games I've done before. I also hope the players will want to make characters that have prior relationships/know each other, as I think that would help with the RP elements (so hopefully they will talk amongst each other while I shuffle my papers desperately :D)

My Italy trip is only about a month away and I haven't planned out anything yet, like looked up places I def want to go see etc... Uh... well there's still time and at least I got my passport renewed in time.

NHL playoffs are starting next week and I'm debating whether I want to renew my viaplay subscription so I can watch the games. I don't really have any particular team I care about and really want to win though... I guess I could just root for the Canes for the chaos potential and they do have quite a few Finns on their team. Also I guess Nashville is cool.


Mar. 28th, 2019 05:46 pm
oanja: (KBell laughing)
I kind of disappeared for March, from the way I was posting this month :'D There's no real reason beyond that I've been binge watching Critical Role and finally caught up yesterday and now there's no more show to watch (and of course they have next week off so there really is no show to watch) I've been thinking about going back to watch the first campaign, but haven't gotten the urge yet. It's so old you guys (jester voice)

Also the D&D game I had to apply for has had two sessions so far. I've had tons of fun!!! I'm playing an elf paladin who worships the goddess of love (he's basically a hippy dibby male model, who just wants to keep everyone safe) haha~ I also ship two of the other characters, a halfling sorcerer and a kobold rogue, their banter is just too good. (I've not shared this with the players, because that might make it awkward for them, which is the last thing I want)

Work has been fine. I think I'll stay here for another year, if nothing super good appears. This job is really easy, I'm not going to get a better job at the same thing I do anywhere else. I am going to keep a lookout for hospital jobs though, because that would be good for my plans to eventually become a therapist.

I'm also thinking about applying to study psychology. It's a really competitive and popular subject to study so I doubt I would get in, but it's not like it hurts to try. If I were to get in I think there's a good chance I could get part time work in my current occupation, so I wouldn't be as broke as a student. IDK, I just have this feeling like I'm not in the quite right line of work and it's nagging on me pretty often.

Because I spent basically all of my free time for the past two weeks watching Critical role, I'm behind on Star Trek and the Magicians. Maybe I will watch those this weekend (I have tomorrow off work, and I'm going to go visit my mom back home. 3 days off work, so goooood!)
oanja: (bear with glasses)
I got into the roll20 game I applied for, I dunno if we start next week or the week after that, but I'm nervous and excited. I'm gonna play a half-orc paladin whoo~

I ordered the D&D player's handbook from bookdepository 8 days ago and it's still not here... the site doesn't have order tracking anymore so I have no idea where the book is. I'm getting nervous, I need it, damn it!

I took tomorrow off work, so I'm going to to the city and get my passport photo taken and go see Captain Marvel (I always want to say/write miss marvel, is that even a thing?) I think I needed to do something else too, but can't remember now
oanja: (Default)
I really want to play it... the problem is that it seems really hard to find a group. I was looking at roll20 and each notice for games looking for players had like 20-50 applications! :O

I'm DM'ing two games right now, but I feel like I would be a better GM if I actually got to play as well :D Both my games are in Finnish and I would like to play in English for some reason... I think mostly just to not have to translate everything *sigh*

Anyway, it's Friday! Aaah the weekend finally (even though I had Monday off work, I feel like I really need these two days off work again.

Leia is back with me (mom brought her last weekend) and I think she's been doing okay here while I'm at work. At least none of the neighbors have come to complain or left notes in the mailbox. I stopped by a pet store today on my way back from work and went kind of overboard with getting her new treats and bones and activity toys, but I do feel bad for leaving her alone for such long periods of time while I'm at work so I think she needs some rewards for being such a good girl.
oanja: (stock cat mouse)
I saw the Favourite finally last Friday and that was one strange and interesting movie! I really had no idea what I was getting into when I went into the cinema, almost like when I went to see the Handmaiden... lol, maybe I should do more research instead of being enamored by the idea of historical/costume dramas and lesbians. :D

But even with all the strangeness and the spoiler spoiler it was all worth it just to see this outfit. That is a cosplay goal for sure! 

Then I caught up with the Magicians last night and omg Eliot!!!! Aaaaah! and Quentin after the mosaic quest was done! Waaah! (but also Margo seemed a bit off in both of the last 2 episodes, what's up with that? I've also forgotten what the horrible thing Alice did was, so I'm kind of confused why they all hate her? She ruined their plan in the maze, I guess? Maybe I just need to rewatch season 3 anyway...)

Also, I'm sorry if you left a comment and I haven't replied... I suck at that right now for some reason. I'll try to catch up this weekend

oanja: (stargate)
So, I booked myself a trip to Italy in late May (the plane tickets I got super super cheap, less than 100€ both ways) but then I still had to do the least favourite thing about booking a holiday, which is picking a hotel. There are so many options! People have such wildly inconsistent ways of reviewing hotels and it's really hard to compare them! When you travel to somewhere you've never been before it's hard to know what the area is going to be like! But I managed in the end. 4 nights in Rome and 3 nights in Naples (I'm gonna do a day trip to Pompeii!)

I'm going to go see so many historical sights and museums, you guys! I love Roman history and I've been dying to visit Italy since I was in highschool and not I'm finally doing it. This is my first time going anywhere other than London by myself, so that's a bit scary, but hopefully it will be okay. Super excited about this trip already :D

1. What made you start writing fanfic?

The first ever fanfic I started writing was a Spike/Xander fic, but I can't actually remember why I started? Maybe just because I'd always liked writing and when I realized you didn't have to make up everything yourself but could borrow characters you already liked, that was very neat! Also discovering that slash fiction was a thing was a real revelation. Haven't looked back since!
2. Which of your own fanfics have you reread the most?

I haven't written that many fics comparatively, but I think I've read my epic length fics the most, one is a hockey rps fic and the other one is a Panic! at the Disco rps fic. I'm still rather pleased with both of them

3. Describe the differences between your first fanfic and your most recent fanfic.

The first fic I posted was very short, like 1k max, didn't really have any plot and I don't think it was very good (I don't think it's up anymore. I posted it to a LJ community in like 2005) My newest fic is from 2017 Yuletide and it's more of a character study than anything else. It's not bad but I also don't think it's really "me" as a fic writer. I've noticed that I don't enjoy writing for someone else in particular and trying to fit into specific prompts. It makes me anxious and too cautious.

4. Do you think your style has changed over time? How so?

Yes, but I don't know how to describe it. My first real fandom was a rps fandom and I used to write pretty long and plotty wips, I think I had 3 stories that were close to 40-50k and I used to all kinds of melodrama and teen angst stuff (I think it was popular in the particular fandom and not just me). I'm kind of sad that I've lost my flare for writing drama, especially the type of drama you generally have in romance and slash fic. I have a hard time making that work logically... These days my fics tend to be low drama/angst or just pwp (I've written a surprising amount of smut, but most of it was for a pornathon...)
5. You've posted a fic anonymously. How would someone be able to guess that you'd written it?

I don't think anyone has read so much of my fics they could do this. Also I've never posted anonymously and I doubt I ever will

6. Name three stories you found easy to write.

All of them. If they get posted I haven't had trouble with them. The ones I have trouble with end up languishing in the wip folder forever

7. Name three stories you found difficult to write.

See above, but if I had to say some of them, I'd go with my yuletide fics, for the reasons I talked about earlier

8. What's your ratio of hits to kudos?

I don't know how you could easily calculate the average, but I'm close to 10% on most of them. pwp's seem to have lower ratios, as well as obscure and older fics

9. What do your fic bookmarks say about you?

I use bookmarks on ao3 as a place to hold fics if I see a rec but don't have time to read right then. This is not the most ideal situation as sometimes these fics are not actually to my liking, but I often forget to remove the bookmark. I don't bookmark that often anymore. I should go back to using Pinboard more I think, if I can get the addon to work again, that made it easy to add new bookmarks
10. What's a theme that keeps coming up in your writing?

Friends to lovers and some type of kink (discovery). I don't have tons of fics so there are no obvious themes as far as I can see
11. What kind of relationships are you most interested in writing?

Hard to answer. Maybe because that's not really the angle that usually inspires me to write? I think I'm more into the idea of the story, the scenario or the plot and then that guides how the relationship fits what I need from the story
12. For E-rated fic, what are some things your characters keep doing?

Kink stuff :D
13. Name three favorite characters to write.

Haven't written a ton of stories about the same characters, but as a type, I tend to like to write from the pov of the more "serious" or "more reserved" character
14. You're applying for the fanfic writer of the year award. What five fanfics do you put in your portfolio?

None of them. I don't think I write well enough for something like this, it would only make me feel bad about my writing when I would inevitably get like last place :D
 (I was going to hide this writing meme under a read more cut, but for some reason I can't get the cut to work and I'm too tired and lazy to fight with it right now... sorry for the long post)
oanja: (spock)
This worked out really well. :D (especially the first seven are like my favourite things ever. I'd only move amnesia fic higher, because I'm a sucker for those and the list didn't have mistaken identity on it, which I love a lot too)

1 Fake Dating/Fake Marriage Accidentally Turns Into Feelings
2 Royals/Political Marriage Turns Into Feelings
3 Friends to Lovers
3 Loyalty Kink
5 Pride and Prejudice AU
5 Found Families
7 'Groundhog Day'/Karmic Time Loop

7 A/B/O
9 Hogwarts AU
9 Daemons
11 Seemingly Unrequited Pining
12 Amnesia Fic
13 Adopting/Raising a Baby
14 Body Swapping
rest under this )

The Magicians was super fun this week, I really like where this season is going. I do feel tempted to flip through the last book to see what the dead with the monster was in the book, I've totally forgotten. (not that the show has been very loyal to the book canon, but I think it would give me clues as to what to expect)

Star Trek Discovery was okay. I still don't like how they seem to be making the whole season about Spock, even though he's not even been in an episode yet. I've read criticism about how they also seem to be shifting attention away from Michael too much and making it more and more about the white characters, which is unfortunate but true. It would have been more okay if Georgiou had remained the captain, instead of them killing her off, or if they had made Saru the captain. At least then the Pike character wouldn't seem to be taking over as much... idk I guess we'll see how it goes. Also the engineer lady is back, yay!

oanja: (Kassandra content)
Soooo, is there anyone, who would be willing to beta read a Diana (wonder woman)/Kassandra (Assassin's Creed Odyssey) fic for me? It's almost 10k (as a warning)

That was a fun thing to write though. I had a long train trip (almost 6 hours) and spent most of it writing this. It's been ages since I started and finished a fic on the same day /on one sitting, or actually sat down to write for an extended period and I had missed that feeling of a story just appearing out of your mind <3

I've been worried about this, as I didn't get any fiction writing done last year. I didn't post any fic and I got almost no original writing done either, but maybe 2019 is going to be a good year for writing *fingers crossed*

I also started the new K.J Charles book; Any old Diamonds and it's as charming as their other books have been! The only thing I'd quibble about is the way they write sex and the dynamics, it seems pretty yaoi sometimes, how there's always such an obvious top and an obvious bottom and they never seem to switch. (I mean I haven't read all of their books, so maybe I've just had bad luck so far)

But if this is an actual trend I wonder if it has something to do with romance tropes and people reading/writing het before? Like the books are also primarily from the pov of the 'bottom' character, which is a trend I've also noticed in fic and I wonder if this has something to do with women writing sex, as it seems a majority of women enjoy being the bottom (to some extent?) idk that is kind of besides my original point, but what I meant to say is I want more sexual relationships where there's switching! Also the bottom doesn't have to be the smaller/more effeminate character. It's 2019, we can do better!
oanja: (stock cat mouse)

Aaah, I don't know if I should have watched this or not. It doesn't really spoil the season, but the glimpses we get from this!!! (I'm just so happy to have this show back. It's sometimes objectively horrible, but at other times it's objectively brilliant and almost always entertaining)

Then randomly, have a video of an Irish man playing a city builder. :D This is pretty much how I do at these games. (I love them, but I'm bad at them, especially later in the game if you need to trade, or wage war etc)

I did the dishes today and unpacked the last of my stuff I hadn't done since the move. Now I just need to vacuum and this apartment looks pretty decent. (I've asked a co-worker to come feed my cat on Tuesday as I'm away from home, so that was sufficient motivation for me to actually do all this tidying up and cleaning)

oanja: (spock)
Did not like that episode much

cut for spoilers )
oanja: (stock flaily)
OMG I didn't know the new season had started already!!! I'm so excited to have this show back. <3

Poor Quentin asking the evil thing if he could have Eliot back and evil thing in Eliot being like "I'm gonna murder everyone!"

edit: forgot to say that this gif was made by alicequinn on tumblr

Also, all the characters were fun and had stuff to do. Can't wait to see what happens with Margo's story line especially


Jan. 27th, 2019 06:06 pm
oanja: (stock cat mouse)
It seems I could have been trying out the Anthem demo all weekend, but only noticed now... Well maybe I can still try it out at least a bit.

It does not look like a game I'm going to pay for, shooters have never been games I like, not to mention that you need to play with other people in this one... whew, not a combo I'm going to enjoy.  I could barely play the Mass Effect games on the easiest setting, so I'm not holding any high hopes for my shooting ability in this one

Also the reason I play Bioware games is the story and the characters and there's been nothing out there to indicate either of these things play a big role in the game.

From what I've seen it sounds closer to Warframe or Destiny than anything else

Edit. Downloaded it, but got the never ending launch screen bug or whatever, so I actually never got into the proper game... haha, great start Bioware, I'm sure things are fine... (I saw on twitter that a lot of people have been having trouble with the game not launching the missions, so I'm not alone with that) also the animation of the npc's looked like Andromeda to me, which is not promising (but my PC is not powerful enough to show it on high resolutions, so maybe it looks better for others) It also makes me wonder why that is an accaptable reason? I mean yeah my PC also can't run Odyssey on ultra graphics, but it the people still look pretty good, so what's up with that Bioware?
oanja: (Kassandra look)
I don't have the energy to actually take screencaps of the episode and write a bunch about it, but I really liked the episode. This recap of the episode is pretty great: Tor review of New Eden (spoiler warning)

What I liked most was the difference compared to the first season when almost all episodes were just about Burnham, this new season has a more traditional Trek feel (not that I'm an expert) and more characters have stuff to do and get to interact with each other. Also the lighter tone of the season continues (I'm so glad the Klingon war thing is over now)

Things I'm more iffy about:
- The religious stuff introduced in this episode...
- The Spock stuff (still questioning why they had to introduce his character in this show and also the things revealed in this episode about where he's right now)

Then unrelated, I went back to Assassin's Creed Odyssey yesterday and I'm now at level 30, so I'm trucking along nicely. Somehow I have lost the ability to take screencaps of my playthrough tough, which sucks!!! Let me screencap every cut scene where Kassandra looks awesome you cowards! *shakes fist*

Oh and some real life stuff:
- It's been really cold for the past week. Thanks winter you're doing great, but could you not so much?
- We had two lecture days at work (I really don't know what to call this stuff, it's not work training, and it's not a course we are taking either, but it's education about issues we deal with at work...) last week too and we learned a lot about trauma, over generational trauma, dissociation and all sorts of things from this family therapist. (good stuff)

oanja: (reading)
So I watched it yesterday and thought I'd do a post about it too. I took some screencaps and will add some thoughts about what I liked and didn't like about the episode. There will obviously be spoilers. (It's kind of cool to have this on Netflix. For once it helps not to live in the US when it comes to popular culture)

this got very long )


Jan. 15th, 2019 09:39 pm
oanja: (KBell laughing)
Who is the Jake Gyllenhall character? Looks like Green Lantern, but isn't that DC? Also when is this happening in the timeline? After Infinity war 2? When does that one come out again... (the MCU is getting too big for me to hold it in my brain)
I googled it and that may be a spoiler for some )

oanja: (reading)
It’s time for chapter 2! There won’t be any spoilers for the book in this one, as the chapter is very short and mostly setup

Link to previous chapter

1 News Comes to Edonomee


2. The Radiance of Cairado

Characters we meet: I don’t think we meet anyone new who will be a recurring character so I’m not going to write them down. It’s just the airship crew and now that I think about it I don’t think they get names.

Summary: Maia, the messenger (who still doesn’t have a name) and Setheris board the airship The Radiance of Cairado and begin their journey to the court. Maia is ogled by the other passengers, who somehow know who and what he is despite the airship accident only having happened the previous day… (maybe they have twitter/news that works very quickly?) Maia is kind to the crew, making a good first impression, ponders about what it means that he’s now the Emperor and how Setheris can’t hurt him anymore.

We find out Maia’s mom died when he was eight and he only met his father once at the funeral where he called Maia a ‘whelp’ and Maia’s mother was his fourth wife.

Commentary: Nothing much happens in this chapter, but I found myself wishing this book had a map of the world, how does it have all the other staples of a fantasy book with a chapter index and a glossary but no map? It’s kind of hard for me to visualize the size of the empire and it would just be cool to see what the world looked like.

We find out that Setheris has been physically abusive towards Maia and that Maia has permanent scars on his arm from when he was 15 and fell against a burning iron grate in front of the fireplace after Setheris hit him.
It seems that Setheris did not hit Maia as often or not as hard(?) after that. “He had been a good deal more circumspect with his fists”

Maia has a great moment here where he figures out that Setheris won’t be able to hurt him anymore, “it occurred to Maia that if Setheris ever struck him again, it would mean a death sentence. The idea was dizzying”

After the realization Maia feels able to rebel against Setheris (maybe for the first time) by not inviting him to the cockpit to view the sunrise.

Maia also very insightfully thinks to himself after they leave Setheris behind angry and humiliated that: “ Maia reminded himself that glee was unbefitting an emperor [...] I must not acquire a taste for this pleasure. It was heady, but he knew it was also poison”

So he’s already able to make the choice that just because he now has the ability and power to take revenge on Setheris for what he had to endure in his care as a child that he’s not going to become like Setheris. It’s a really powerful statement I think and something a lot of people are unable to do. A lot of people who have been hurt are prone to then take that out on anyone else they are able to, unless they just turn that inward and instead hurt themselves.

I think that’s the most important moment in this chapter, as we learn something really fundamental about Maia and what kind of person he is.
oanja: (stock converse)
The trip was pretty nice, apart from the fact that I was sick with a cold the whole time. I'm getting better now, so at least there's that...
It had just snowed the first morning I was there so everything was very pretty. The training course I was there for was nice, the people were all familiar with each other and we had a really nice relaxed atmosphere. I also got to see a friend who lives in Helsinki and we got Philippines food at a restaurant, which I had never tasted before and which was pretty tasty.

I also got to finally see the spiderman animation and I liked it. I've seen and heard people say it's the best superhero movie ever and I would not go that far, but it was really cool and made me want to read Miles Morales Spiderman comics
photos photos )

Fandom meme

Jan. 7th, 2019 09:16 pm
oanja: (Kassandra content)
Going to Helsinki tomorrow! Whee travel, also I get to stay in a hotel and my employer will pay the bill. :D

onto the meme )


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